Hello there! My name is Sandra and at 27 years old I decided to take control of my life.
At the time I was living in a basement apartment in Burnaby BC that I could barely afford. I was on the brink of bankruptcy, overcoming an abusive relationship, overweight, depressed and suffering from agoraphobia. By all counts and measures I was at the absolute lowest point of my life and could not see the light at the end of my own tunnel.
Having suffered from panic disorder, depression and weight problems since childhood I had conditioned myself into believing that it was simply in my DNA to suffer. This self perception caused me to look at my life through a lens of hardship and I was only able to focus on what I could never achieve. I had woven these obstacles into my identity. I was convinced that I could never have the job of my dreams because my anxiety would sabotage me. I felt I could never be loved because of my weight and my depression kept my personality small.
I had nurtured these beliefs over many years and as a result I did not treat myself with the respect and care I deserved and as a result allowed others to disrespect and mistreat me. I ended up in a relationship online which propelled my move cross country. The relationship had begun to unravel the last threads of my life and nearly drove me into the ground.
During this time I ended up throwing myself into work and built a career that I performed well at but didn’t feel satisfied by. For my whole life I had always felt called to write, called to counsel and called to guide others but was so weighed down by my circumstances that I felt I couldn’t possibly be qualified to assist anyone else if I couldn’t assist myself.
After experiencing panic attacks every day for months I decided to seek help. In a moment of clarity I knew that I didn’t want to live a life of suffering and if I was going to keep living like this every day it would be better not to live at all. I vowed to gain control of my life, my health, my finances, my relationships and my overall well being and connected with someone who lead me on a path to healing myself from the inside out.
Since that time I’ve changed every aspect of my life one step at a time. I learned to care for and nurture myself and because I have shifted my perspective I have learned to see opportunities for success and fulfillment at every turn. It is my most sincere belief that everyone has the opportunity to change their life no matter how dark it may seem. Sometimes it simply takes the right guide to steer us in the right direction and show us that while one end of the tunnel may be dark and endless there is light also.
My goal is to be your personal advocate and guide to help you find your desired path in life. If you are struggling, chances are I have been where you have been. If I could find my way out I believe that you can, too. I hope we can work together to shed some light on your life and help to get you from where you are to where you want to be.